What I Photographed When My Pet Died

What I Photographed When My Pet Died

It's difficult when a pet dies, but as photographers, we can choose to honor our loved ones with photos that will last forever. Here's what I chose to photograph when my pet died.

We've been keeping grasshoppers for about six months now after I found out about a Korean study on the effects of pet insects on cognitive function among the elderly. We'd originally bought them for an elderly relative that was struggling with anxiety and depression through the lockdown period here in the UK. The study had shown that keeping crickets helped to lift the mood and give purpose to the elderly that were otherwise struggling with mental health or feeling lonely. However, they weren't quite suitable for our relatives, so we ended up keeping them at my home.

It's been six months now, and one of the last grasshoppers passed away during the second lockdown, and though some may quaff at the fact that it's "just an insect," the animal had still spent a significant amount of time with us, and it hurt. So, to honor the time we had with the hopper, I decided to cherish it through photography.

When the grasshopper died, nothing much changed about its appearance. Its color was dimmed, and it no longer moved, but other than that, the exoskeleton looked almost identical to when it was alive. So, I felt comfortable photographing the tiny little details on its body that I'd previously not been able to look at closely without it hopping away.

Face to Face

Close up of grasshopper face

With a reversed Nikon 24mm f/2.8D wide-angle lens, I was able to get a high-magnification shot of the hopper's eye, showing the ommatidia lenses. If you look closely, you can also see the pseudopupil (black dot) in the middle of the compound eye

Though I'd spent hours looking at the hopper through the glass tank, I'd never really got a close look at its face. So I put on my Nikon 24mm f/2.8D, reversed it, and mounted a Yongnuo YN685 on a flash bracket with a homemade diffuser. With this technique, I was able to get extremely close to the hopper. I had such magnification that I was able to look into its eyes and capture the ommatidia (lenses) in its compound eye.

Lattice of Beauty

Grasshopper wing macro

I used the same reverse lens technique to capture this macro shot of the grasshopper's wing. It was important to set an aperture of f/11 to keep the very shallow depth of field as large as possible so the wing was in focus.

Using the same technique as before, I wanted to capture its wings. The grasshoppers, when I bought them from the pet shop, were small juveniles that grew over time. Animals with exoskeletons don't grow like us vertebrates, they molt their external shell and grow in stages (aka instars). In their final growth instar, the hoppers become adults and turn into locusts where they have sexual organs and wings.

It was difficult to capture this photographically because of the inherently shallow depth of field that comes with macrophotography. So, I set an aperture of f/11 on the reversed lens, then set about shooting the wing straight-on so that it was flat towards the lens, thereby maximizing the sharpness of the wing against the depth of field. I rocked back and forth to manually focus and waited until the wing was sharp before firing off one or two shots at a time.

Some of the hoppers didn't make it to adulthood, and others sadly passed away during the molting process, so this was one of only two that made it through to have a full set of wings. I didn't photograph its wings when it was alive, because if it escaped outside, it could have a catastrophic effect on our wildlife (these hoppers aren't native to the UK), so it was only in death I could capture the true beauty of their adult wings. I was blown away at how intricate their latticing was across the wing. Even the dark markings seemed to seep through the veins and wing cells. I think it looks a bit like a tennis racket that's been soaked in soap and water, something I never would've seen with the naked eye.

Scaling Skyscrapers

I'd often wondered over the last six months just how the grasshoppers could scale the sides of the glass tank without anything to hold onto. It's like walking up the outside of a skyscraper with suction pads attached to your hands and feet. It would effortlessly just wander around on the sides or upside down on the roof without a struggle. I wanted to take a closer look at its feet with this macro setup, and I'm very thankful I did.

Grasshopper feet macro

The grasshopper's legs and feet are covered in hairs and stiff, sharp, claw-like appendages as well as having what appear to be sticky pads on the bottom.

Without shooting a macro image of this grasshopper, I never would've known how it scaled those glass walls. But taking a closer look through my lens, I discovered that there's a series of what appear to be sticky pads on the bottom among several sharp, claw-like protrusions that look similar to a bird's foot. No wonder it could hang upside down without a problem.

Introspection

Clouds high in the sky

I now look up to the skies and wonder where my pet's atoms will end up next; perhaps my next photo of the towering Cumulonimbus may in fact have some energy in it from my once living pet.

It was through this process of photographing my deceased friend that I got to know it a little better. I could imagine what it would feel like to scale a sheer vertical wall with no footholds and how it must've felt to be looking around its enclosure and out the window with multiple lenses for eyes. Though it never used its wings for flight, I managed to find out just how beautiful my pet was through the miracle of photography. It's for this deeper connection and time-traveling medium that I'm eternally grateful to photography.

If I hadn't taken the time to learn how to set my aperture or which shutter speed I should set when shooting with off-camera flash, I never would've had the opportunity to capture my little friend in such glorious detail. As I get older and my eyesight worsens, I'm sure I'll be relying on the technological advances of photography to capture the things I love around me and get to know them a little more. Through the lens, I find myself looking more deeply at the things around me, and it's something I encourage many others to take up, whether as a form of meditation or simply to reconnect with the wild world around you. Though morbid as photographing a dead pet may seem, on this occasion, it's helped me say goodbye and appreciate all its intricate beauty that I never had the opportunity to find when it was alive.

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9 Comments

Joel Manes's picture

Hmmmm, not really sure what to say here. Sorry for your loss.

Mike Ditz's picture

I didn't photograph anything.

Jan Holler's picture

"the last grasshoppers passed away", OMG you must feel terrible I lost my sister, I lost my parents, I lost my brother-in-law, I lost some of my friends, so I know how you feel. My deepest condolences and sympathy.
I am very sorry for your loss - and I am sorry that I did what I knew was wrong: to read another one of your articles.

Jim Bochicchio's picture

I just lost my Irish Wolfhound yesterday. I am completely devastated and I guarantee your exercise will not be what I try to ease the pain and learn from the experience. I am very happy it worked for you.

ian kasnoff's picture

Pet?
When my last dog of 16 years died I cried like a blubbering fool, what I didn’t do was photograph her corpse. I had many photographs of her on all the all solo trips we took, where she would watch my back, my bag and my truck and sometimes lead me to a great composition I hadn’t thought of or seen. She was a companion and a member of the family. She was worthy of photographs when she was alive. To me, a pet is a being you form a bond with. You think that grasshopper gave a turd who you were? As if it knew...

Also: "Pet" as a noun dates to the 16th century (from, remarkably, a Scottish Gaelic word meaning "tame animal").

Give me a break man, you aren’t doing yourself (or this site) any favors with this article...
In fact, it kind of pissed me off.

Timothy Turner's picture

A pet grass hopper? No just no.

Marco Fiorini's picture

I lost my dog on December 4th. This article looks like a very bad taste joke. Is there even anybody who review this shit before it is published?

Cat Milton's picture

Jason Parnell Brookes.
Name logged and your work henceforth dismissed.

You might want to back check my comment history on FS - you’ll note that this attitude from myself is uncharacteristic but I found your article utterly tasteless and insensitive in the extreme.

Michelle Maani's picture

Give me a freaking break.