My loneliness and alienation comes from a fear of being left behind and fading into a distant memory by those I hold close. Also intense fear of what may happen to me once they've found out again how I really am and then when they speak my name. Wanting to be notice but at the same time wanting to be hidden away from everyone so they can't see me. It becomes an intense struggle over my mentality of whether I allow myself to be seen by both the people who wish to see me locked away forever and the people I hold close to me.
With this photo I layered 2 photos on one. This time I made the image of me faded to show how my loneliness and self-alienation looks to me. I feel like a ghost at times. I’ve often found myself questioning if I’m even here and if do in fact exist. I feel like I’m left behind in the world while it takes off without me. Like missing the connecting bus and watching it drive away while you chase after it, it only gets faster and farther away.