Shame

This one is about the shame for the horrible things I’ve been done in my life to the people around me that I care about most. Whether the reasons because a failed marriage and previous relationships to friends whose trust I've misplaced and taken advantage of. The hatred I have for the things in life that I've done and those I've hurt. When sorry isn't enough to carry the relationship, only extreme pain inflected inward will fix the problems. Constant thoughts of it to almost haunting experience of the situations. Sometimes only taking a handful of pills will kill the urges to self-destruct.